Dream chasing

Jan 30

You know, I live a pretty great life.  I love it. Lately, though, I’ve been in the business of dreaming.  Not all of my dreams are about my kids and my husband… some dreams are… just mine.  It feels selfish and decadant to wish these dreams, but I know that my dreams are essential to preserving my Jen-ness.  And my kids and my husband are rather...

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Write out loud

Jan 10

I write because it’s how I process.  I step away from each post with a sense of closure, a feeling that I am content, and resolute in my goals.  Good or bad, writing it down always helps me get to a place of peace.  I fight hard for peace; everything is better when I am peaceful (just ask Brad).  Writing has always been enjoyable for me, and now, in this...

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Finding fabulous

Dec 14

Sometimes I remember that I had cancer, and I am in danger of recurrence.  My chest constricts, my heart starts to pound, I blink, I tell myself to breathe, and I physically rotate my shoulders back to force the weight of the cancer to roll off and away. After shaking it off, I lift my chin, I step away from the fear, and I go do something fabulous.  You know, like...

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Our little gift tradition

Nov 17

I’ve had several friends start asking: what are you doing for the holidays this year?  We, as with most young families, are finding our footing on how we are going to celebrate our past traditions while making meaningful holiday memories for our own young families. Last year, I wrote up a small article about how Brad and I do our gift-giving within our...

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Being and seeing

Nov 13

Sometimes people for sorry for me. But you know what? I don’t feel sorry for me.  (So please, please, please don’t feel sorry for me.) I kind of feel blessed and lucky and happy and joyful most of the time.  (I’m not perfect: I want things, I worry, I make excuses.)  But, truly: I am happy. I ache–physically ache–for people who...

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A Smile

Jun 20

I’m sitting here in my bed, computer open, watching So You Think You Can Dance.  I am being totally frivolous and lazy and it feels good. I keep getting goose bumps.  Oddly frequently.  Also, the tumor site is tingling from time to time.  Are you thinking what I’m thinking? Active, restless, swarming O B L I T E R A T I O N ! Thank you for your prayers....

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