Being present

May 30

Yesterday I was challenged to come up with quality time for myself and the girls.  After they kicked off summer in a big way with NanaRoz and before they whirled off to their adventure weekend (camping with Daddy!), I had a few hours with them.  They have full calendars this week, but both of them have Mommy-Snuggle-Meters that must get filled up or else they start...

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Wind on my face

May 27

Tonight I went for my evening stroll at sunset.  The sky was brilliantly beautiful and I so enjoy the routine of a quiet half-hour/hour to myself meandering my neighborhood.  As I walked tonight it was chilly enough that I wore a sweatshirt.  The wind picked up and my hair blew into my eye.  The implication it that my hair is long enough to blow into my face.  What...

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A description of the funk

May 26

The Funk, as I’ve been calling it, is definitely legit this time around.  It looks like each cycle I’ll end up with a stretch of days where I’m feeling “funky”. Today I went in to the oncology office for my third round on this drug.  I saw my friends: Rockstar (my nurse partitioner), my nurses, my fellow patients, the support staff.  It...

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Keeping it real: normal

May 19

My friend asked me the other day, “Can you remember/imagine what it would be like be normal and to live without cancer in your life?” My answer, immediately, was “no”, and I went on with a lengthy explanation of how I can’t imagine what it would be like to not have this diagnosis around.  Cancer is and forever will be linked to this...

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Motherhood

May 10

Motherhood

Today was a great day.  I would say I wobbled out of the chemo funk today… apparently a little funk is indeed going to be part of the routine with this drug regimen.  I’m okay with it: I’ll plan to have built-in rest time and will rally for moments that matter.  Let’s keep perspective: this is the routine I want to have for the next forty-six...

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