A week of spring

Apr 19

On Monday I had my second infusion of my new chemotherapy drug. Everyone who sees me keeps asking how I am feeling on the new stuff and how it compares to the old stuff. Meh, it’s hard to tell. In general, it’s still chemo with all the accompanying challenges. I’m getting steroids and the white-blood-cell-boosting drug in addition to the chemo, so...

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I cried today

Apr 10

Today was hard. Hard enough that I cried. I cried a few times, in fact. Crying for me means passion: I really care about the thing that makes me cry. It’s just that sometimes my passion comes out of my eyeballs. (Honestly, this is not the most convenient way to express passion, but it is authentically how I am made and I cannot change my wiring in this regard....

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Spring in

Apr 09

Spring in

My new drug dripped in today (Tuesday) instead of yesterday because it didn’t get delivered from the pharmacy to my oncology office in time. I’ve been through enough chemo drugs that I’m on to ones that are on the “back of the shelf” figuratively, and — apparently — literally. Nonetheless, the new chemo is in, and doing its...

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A new season

Apr 04

A new season

Today Brad and I met with Dr. Wonderful to review my results from my PET scan. We learned what we had braced ourselves for based on my worsening cough: the cancer in my lungs and lymph nodes is a little bit bigger and a little bit more active. This is progression, and it means we are moving on to a new treatment. While it’s always hard to have progression, I...

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Small victories

Apr 01

One of my longtime favorite quotes was said by Mother Teresa: “We cannot all do great things. But we can do small things with great love.” I had a frustrating weekend with my body continuing to struggle to catch up with my wants. I had to say no to a lot. It — my body — is keeping up with my needs but is leaving me pretty disappointed with...

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