Round Two: the real deal

Oct 03

I’ve been struggling to write, I think, because what I have to say is hard. It is hard to have progressive cancer.  Wrapping my mind around it, sharing it with Brad, and walking my girls through it: it is freaking hard.  There is also my parents, sisters, family and friends, who love me so.  It is hard to cause them pain too. There are so many more logistics...

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Little big blessings

Sep 25

Little big blessings

My people get me.  This is a smattering of some of the picturesque and inspiring cards I have gotten from my village over the past two weeks.  Each brings a smile and makes my heart grow a little bit. Tonight at dinner the girls decided they are going to start getting ready for bed a half-hour early so that they can have sister reading time together before bed....

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Day 13

Sep 24

Today is cycle day thirteen on the new treatment. It’s always funny how time is measured in your consciousness. Stereotypically, the weekend flies by and weekdays plunk along.  Toddler tantrums make minutes feel like hours.  In my family we anticipate reunions with how many big sleeps left countdowns. Nap time: you blink and you (literally) miss it. Every time...

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Drip on

Sep 12

I am officially in the chemotherapy suite in my oncology office.  I am watching my new chemo medicines drip in as I type this.  Go chemo go! I love visualizing the chemo molecules attacking the cancer cells one-by-one and obliterating them. I am feeling the Benadryl zonk — they give me a big dose through my port because many people have allergic reactions to...

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A season change

Sep 10

Last week I had a scan.  Cancer scans come up regularly, and yet there is nothing regular about them. The scan shows that I have a few spots in my left lung that are both more active and larger.  Ugh.  There are many other spots that are either stable or regressing, but these active spots need to be addressed.  Unchecked cancer growth is what we are working against....

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