The view is rather nice on the way down

Apr 14

Another phenomenal person has come in to do this life with us.  The girls spent the day at Phenom’s house yesterday while I spent a quiet day at home alone (but not lonely–thank you for that).  All of the logistics were orchestrated in such a way that I just know this is how it was meant to be.  All reports indicate that it was a fun, fabulous day.  Maren and Greta were both giggly and happy when they came home.  I gave them each 20 minutes of my best, and I think it was enough.  They both fell asleep fast after a hard day of play.   I am so grateful.  My two girls, they are my priority and it feels so good to know that they are being loved, and loved well.

I did today well in my own way.  I rested, I slept, I watched a chick flick.  I was too tired to be productive, so I wasn’t productive.  I actually had to work hard to not do productive things and to just rest.  So, I’m proud of myself, even though there are ten jobs I can think of right now that should be done.  They can wait.

It felt decadent to adhere to my wishes and my needs.  As a mom, my needs are often bumped.  But not today.  The anti-nausea and steroid meds I receive through my port before the chemo are quite effective, and I took more meds as I needed them today.  A friend drove me to the doctor’s office to get my immune-boosting injection and we had great conversation during the drive.  I asked the nurse whether I could have my mom give me the injections at home since she’s a nurse and it would save the 90 minute round trip.  She answered that I’d have to pay the full amount for the shot: $6,000 instead of a co-pay.  Gulp.  Thank you Jesus, for medical insurance.  Holy moly.  I drank protein shakes and I ate homemade soup from another friend.  Library books and movies for low-key weekend fun with the girls appeared on my doorstep, the work of yet another friend.  Stories and memories and well wishes and prayers pinged me all day in between naps.  It was, oddly, quite a nice day.

Thank you for checking on me, for praying for me and for loving me.  I am navigating my cliff and looking up.


  1. Sue Nitz /

    Thank you dear God for giving me the opportunity to pray for Jen and her family. I ask you to right now give her a feeling of peace and of Your loving presence. Give her strength and courage as she maneuvers her cliff. Be with her family and send your angels to watch over them. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. Promises of continued prayers for you and your family throughout your journey.

  2. Drinking my morning coffee, reading your post, and saying a prayer for you!

  3. Wonderful to hear!
    Praying for you from the other side of the ocean, and thankful He has the whole world in His hands.

  4. Bonniebj /

    His joys and mercies are new every morning… Jen ,rest peacefully, snuggle peacefully, soak in all of the giggly sounds you can today. Today is a good day and the Lord is paving your way for you, Brad,Maren and Greta.

  5. Julie T /

    I love starting my day out with your blog…can you just keep writing even when you have this beast conquered? I think you have discovered a hidden talent and I would be the first in line to purchase a novel written by you 🙂 Grateful to be inspired be inspired by you every day!! Prayers and love to you x4.

    • Julie T /

      I guess I was double inspired so maybe that was a not a typo then 🙂

  6. Good Morning Jen ~ I hadn’t checked in for a couple of days ~ WOW you have been bungy juming & then having a day of relaxation ( if not for better words ) Your Journey of ” Game On ” is remarkable ~ You are woman, hear you Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ~ Love, Peace & Prayers 🙂

  7. Looking up is always a good thing – so many of us loose sight of that fact because we are so busy / worried about taking each next step. So here’s looking up with you Jen as you navigate your way along your cliff…from the sound of things you have plenty of help / love surrounding you to keep you from slipping. Sending positivie thoughts your way.

  8. I’ve been silently following your journey the last few weeks from my little spot in North Carolina. My youngest was born with a heart defect and I used to spend all sorts of time praying for his surgeons and nurses and cardiologists. He’s doing better now and we are out of the hospital; so today, I’m turning my doctor-prayer time your way. Praying for you this morning, and for your sweet girls, and your rockstar doctors and medical team. Thank God for modern medicine and the hope it can bring us. If my little guy’s heart can run off a pacemaker and turn him into a chubby, happy baby, then I have all the hope in the world that your chemo can kick this cancer’s ass.
    May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May the Lord lift his countenance upon you and give you HIS peace.

  9. Thank you for sharing this journey with us Jen. I’m glad you are feeling the “pings” of love all day long! Know that a family here in Virginia is praying for you and your family each day! xoxo

  10. I am SO HAPPY to hear you were able rest and NOT be productive! I’m so glad you are in such good care and you can also rest in the fact that your girls are happy and loved well. Repel on sweet friend!

  11. Thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

  12. Eva Brown /

    Dearest Jen,
    “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” Heb. 10:23

  13. Hillary S. /

    I am inspired by your every post. Agreed- a novel is in the making. No surprise that you are showered with surprises and love around you as you give so much. Think of you daily and sending a BIG jolt to your immune system and seeing the cancer FLEE.

  14. “But, if it were I, I would appeal to God. I would lay my cause before him. He performs wonder that cannot be fathomed, Miracles that cannot be counted” – Job 5:8.9

    You don’t know me and I don’t know you. But, my family is praying for you and so is my grandmother, who has her friends in South America praying. By the end of this evening, my friends in Kyrgyzstan, Indonesia, Zimbabwe, Ecuador, and France will be joining us in prayer to the God who created you, loves you, and who can and does heal. Heck, He raised the dead. We have a God who CAN do it.

    Your girls are so blessed to have you.


  15. Hey Jen! I am just a stranger that is checking in, seeing how you are doing, saying a prayer for you! I hope you are feeling better from this round soon… your high spirits are so uplifting! God bless you and your family!

  16. Jen, what a brave & beautiful & courageous woman you are. Just wanted to let you know that a momma in the Pacific NW will be adding you to her prayer list. God is good and I pray that He holds you and your family and your awesome team of doctors close to His heart and gives you all wisdom and courage to win this battle. {{Hugs}}

  17. Tina Mathie /

    XoXoXo love you! Think of you guys and pray for you all often. I wish you didn’t have to do this but I love reading your blog. Hugs

  18. chubbyroad2skinny /

    How wonderful that you have such great people to look after your girls while you recuperate.