Insert Christmas Magic here

Dec 10

I’m still sick, people.  Sick enough that Dr. Wonderful’s team decided I should not get chemo today; we have pushed it back to Thursday.  It is the first time I have ever had a delay in treatment of this nature and I don’t like it.  However, when I try to imagine layering chemo symptoms on top of what my body is already dealing with, it makes me...

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Love from the outside in

Dec 08

I really feel like it is September. I sort things into piles of “to do” and it is very alarming how tall my “very important to do” stack is.  I’m stressed about what’s in there, but also know it is silly to stress, so I don’t.  Where have the past few months gone?!  Oh, right.  Chemo.  Doh. Last weekend at this time I was...

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Fortitude

Dec 01

Fortitude

I had my regular PET scan at the end of the week, and Dr. Wonderful’s sidekick called me with the results thanks to my nurses who made sure it was on his radar.  (It is so nice that they call; many times patients have to wait one to two weeks to get their results.)  Good news: the scan showed that all of the cancer spots in my lungs are either stable or...

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Winter treasures

Nov 27

Today Maren went to school wearing my favorite sweatshirt that I wore in college and beyond.  It looks big on her but in the cool, slouchy kind of way.  We got her first round of hand-me-downs when I purged my closet into hers.  It’s a good thing I am sentimental about favorites and I keep the things.  She is 5’2″, blows her own hair dry every...

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Turn your face to the sun

Nov 07

Turn your face to the sun

My years at university were some of my favorites; I was blessed with a very high return on investment in college in terms of personal development, and I look back on those people and that place with great fondness.  During my long walks to my classes, I began to develop the habit of turning my face to the sun: to feel the warmth on my skin, to pause for a moment of...

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Around the world, and on to Round 3

Oct 26

Around the world, and on to Round 3

It’s me again, writing from the chemo chair.  Today is chemo day.  I wrote my previous post on October 3, also from the chemo chair.  Five hour infusions wherein I am confined to a recliner make for good writing opportunities. For about a week after my treatments, I feel pretty low; everything is hard.  At about the one week mark, I start to feel more...

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